I’m not sure what to do any more. What I want.

For years I said I wanted to have the recovery that B has. I wanted to enjoy food and have freedom with my food and be relaxed about my body. Or at least accepting it. And that’s what I tried to do. That’s what I was working for, that’s what I spent years trying to achieve, that was what I held onto while I was in a bigger body and not changing my food or exercise.

But it never got better. And I’m worried it never will. What if I left one thing out of the puzzle…. Continue reading →