Past Session Recordings Hold Possibility for Insight after Termination

May 15, 2016

When I first started seeing my past therapist in private practice I recorded our sessions. I did this for about three years. A few months after she terminated our therapeutic relationship, I pulled out these recordings and started to listen to them. I have been using my old sessions as my own form of therapy to continue to help myself process what had happened. I am using me, my healthier self, and the person who my therapist had once believed in, had wanted to be in relationship with, and had cared for. I use these sessions as evidence that the relationship was real, to keep myself moving forward.

These conversessions continue to provide insight into who I am and what happened. They are also acting as a lifeline. This is how I am being my own therapist… and holding on.

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Get Connected

I’m sitting at Barnes and Noble this afternoon in the cafe section, and I open up my laptop to log onto their wifi network. This is something I have been doing every singe day for the past week, as I am in the midst of job hunting, and, given that I also have no desk or Internet, let alone a place to live, Barnes and Noble cafe has become my “office”. Continue reading

The phone call that changed everything

I needed some sort of warning for this before this morning…

…and on a day I’m supposed to go to work. I honestly did not go into this phone call expecting this to be the outcome. I thought I was the one making who was going to be making a choice, that I had a decision to make and that I had some questions around the possible options of that decision. That alone felt super challenging and emotional. I’d spent all week preparing for that. Doing so much journaling and soul searching. Really trying to determine what was the best choice. Continue reading

Stuck

Wednesday  October 22nd, 2014

I don’t know why today I was a such a mess. I know I didn’t show up well in and I can’t explain why. I had a feeling it would be rough going in, cuz i felt off ever since I woke up this morning (felt kinda lethargic and a little groggy, and couldn’t shake it). Continue reading